To you who sits serenely on her chariot,
thronged by hordes of mad devotees;
to you whose brilliance bursts through burnished bronze
never quite buried under layers of silk and fragrant garlands;
to you whose smile is a lotus just starting to bloom,
I, being a petty mortal, am always aware
that the whole world dances to your whims.
the fecundity of green paddy fields
and cracks on parched earth of a long drought.
a house filled with the laughter of children
and cries of women with barren wombs.
the comfort of full coffers
and the emptiness of a beggar's bowl.
But as I lie prostrate before you,
I desire nothing,
except to mould you with my own hands.
All over again.
No matter how hard I try,
I can never numb this
piercing pang of separation.
I can never forget
that I birthed you
and you birthed me.
But who birthed whom?
You're a daughter I'm about to lose
to your bronze counterpart;
he's dying to wed you
just to bed you
in the sanctum sanctorus
of a timeless temple.
the germ of a Goddess in beeswax
as you flowed through my fingers
and filled yourself out.
pliable clay with which I caressed
the lotus blossom of your bosom.
bliss that became solid
like the clay that caked your body.
a spurting stream of molten beeswax
that gushed out in the heat of the moment.
a hollow womb
yearning for more than just pleasure.
green glowing bronze
straight from the furnace of frenzied devotion,
with which I filled the aching void of your being.
a babe becoming a Goddess
in her secure cocoon- a womb of clay.
agony tearing me apart
when I cracked open your hardened cast.
no longer mine
when I carved your eyes
with a golden chisel,
you became Devi
when you opened your eyes to the world.